Dissapointed

Today i came over a certain lil angel's blog, and due to that, i certainly was dissapointed. in her blog, she described how and why she broke up with her ex, and how and why she went to her current. worst part is, i never even came into the picture. whether it's someone that she hates or someone she like's, no. i had become a background, a wallpaper that is being faded away, forgotten. does it mean that during that period of time, all those 'i love you' i'i miss you' messages are just to make me happy? who knows mayb. nevermind. if that is going to do her good, i wouldnt bother, but i'll really take some time before i really start to chill down from these 2 experiences i wrote about in the previous entry, and to start all over again. college started and i hope i'll be able to wash these painful experiences down the drain, not to keep them stashed at the back of my mind. cant believe that someone i loved turns out to be this way, and to know that once she told me that a certain guy liked her, and when he changed target, she thinked that the guy didn love her at all coz can change target so fast. and the guy took a few months. now? just look at herself. it took her only like 3 days i think. argh. doesnt matter. i'm healing now.