Random

my mood swings are terrible lately. yesterday when i went out with some friends, i think i switched moods 4-5 times omg. and the worst part is that i go from extreme's to extremes. sheez. i've been visiting some blogs just now.. reading about people and friends. how they gave up friendship for love, and regretting it, or about how lovey dovey that particular couple is now, etc etc. and thus it occurred to me, i'm alone. A.L.O.N.E. sheesh. why? few days back, i wanted to go out and watch a movie, and watching movies alone is kinda boring. so yeah, i picked up my phone, scrolled through my contacts. heck. although i have more than 200 contacts there, i seriously have no one to call. prolly some not that close, mayb some wont come out. some i dont want to go out with them. some live too far. some mayb not free, and so, and so. i ended up scrolling through my contact list three times, and to come to no result.

i guess i'm quite disliked after all. to be honest, who will actually come out with me even if i called? am i important enough to let someone leave whatever he/she is doing at that moment, and just to plainly entertain me? guess not. oh wait, not guessing, is SURE not. =.=

i guess even this blog is hardly visited anymore lol. and for those who do, i sincerely thank you for doing so. although i hate tags, but i did WC's tag. for the sake of friends. to think that i actually came up in his mind as he chose to tag people.

i want to know myself. but at the same time, i want people to know me, to believe in me, to be friends, not aquaintances ( not sure of the spelling ).

never be satisfied. always ask for more. for the right things, at the very least.
when one reaches his goal, he fails.

and thus, i'm alone.
still.