Questions

i need some answers to my life.

things have not been well lately, i hardly seem to care about anything anymore. Too lazy to bother about applications, too lazy to do homework, and whats worse than not caring about someone you're supposed to love?

i realized that i've not posted anything about you before, and thus, it's sad to say that this will be the first post, which isnt very happy.

i wonder,
what have i done?

i used to love,
i used to miss you.
but these are slipping through my fingers,
i'm losing grasp of you.
or rather,
i've loosened my fingers to let you go.
to let you fall out of my grasp.
why?
i need the answer.
an answer which i dont know.
or rather,
afraid to know.

yesterday was weird.
i msn chatted with one girl,
sms'ed another.
that msn changed to sms,
and i sms'ed 2 girls.
when both are done and i'm preparing to sleep,
the third called me.
what can i do?

eddie i finally understand why you cant like jaclyn although you like her.
it's weird when a girl finds you,
and ignores the next day.
it's difficult.

yc. i'm being unfair to you, i know.
buti cant help it.
things are just dry, and the rain refuse to come wet the lands again.

kwi need you.
but i care about your opinion of me too much to tell you all these.
i just cant.

hx i miss you.
i miss the days i used to knock at your door,
i miss the days i fought with you.
is the room next to mine going to stay empty forever?

a wrong choice leads to further wrong choices. what can be done to undo the wrongs?

blargh. this is just sad.

p.s. Huiyee, congrats for getting better. i know you wont be reading this, but i just wanna let you know that doing this like that just worries everyone around you.. think carefully next time okay?