i miss you

the real reason why i'm being so bitter and emotional, is because of a certain person. of course, the 'girl' i like is a partial sponser, but the main person is my sister. since she went to uk, i'm very very very very bored. there's no one to fight, no one to argue, no one to cry to, no one to talk with. basically, i have outlet for all my feelings. thats why i'm kind of 'rush' as some of you put it, to get a 'girlfriend', and why i dont really expect the 'girlfriend' to be more physically attached, but rather mentally attached, as 'you' put it as lovey dovey stuff. this experience of missing my sister is really painful, it's like part of you being ripped off. you still feel it's there, but when u reach out to it, it's gone.