Messed up
What happens when you find urself in a situation, both really happy and really pissed at the same time? When ur mood Swings from TIP TOP to TOTALLY SHIT within like 10 seconds? it's like u have a Pendulum as ur 'mood decider'. Swing swing swing. Thats a quick summary of what i'm feeling this instant. This. VERY instant.
I quite hate what i'm feeling right now. Past few months, ( or was it weeks? ) was once that i LIKED someone, for real, and to spend like another whole month trying to forget. It hurt me pretty much in the process, and yeah, there's still a picture of her at a place where i see everyday. But whatever la.
Then there's this girl that came into my life. She appeared to be nice, to be a nice friend. Well, i wouldnt say that i like her/love her, but i just wanna be closer than what we are at the moment. Although i have this feeling that eventually things wouldn't work out fine. It was a strange feeling yeah. Like we probably are just going to talk for a while, then slowly, Things are going to Fall Apart. ( yeah, so very Chinua Achebe =.= ). Well, things Did fall apart for a little while, then things came back as normal, then it fell apart again, then it came back =.=. that pretty much contributed to the fact that i'm having such stupid mood swings. Today i chatted with her, it started alright, and i was pretty happy and so and so. Then came a certain line in the chat that made me swing 180'. To totally emo. Then after a while, I fell alright again, then WTF. Another line. And i gave up. I sort of 'eeh eeh aah aah' throughout the rest of the convo.
Why? Yeah i do like her, but it's not the bf/gf kind of love thingy, but more of a 'hey i find u pretty interesting' kind. But this 'relationship' we are having is dissapointing me day by day. why? no idea.
Other reasons which contributed my current status,
1. Some PISSING OFF during evening. Certain people will know why. And THAT, was IRRITATING. if ever i find out how to Lock a post, i WILL SPAM A HECK LOT ON THAT TOPIC and let people who i AGREE to read them ny.
2. The SMOKE due to the buring of josssticks my grandma is using to help my mum pray for her birthday ( according to chinese calendar ). The smoke just creeps up my nose and gimme a double dose of FLU. flu 1. sick. flu 2, sinus prob. I used like what, 5 tissues a minute? until my nose went red and i decided, SCREW IT.
3. Some reminder of some awfully painful past events. =.=
4. Missing someone really important in my life.
5. Tired-ness
6. Physics and Mr.Lim
7. Facing a certain shitty Math teacher tomorrow.
8. Every other reason in the world =.=
The only funny thing today
( from seng yik's blog )
it goes like,
Why does abdullah only functions properly at night?
Coz he's PM not AM.
haha.
WHATEVER LAH! i'm PISSSED, TOTALLY MESSY and tired.
ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz.......
I quite hate what i'm feeling right now. Past few months, ( or was it weeks? ) was once that i LIKED someone, for real, and to spend like another whole month trying to forget. It hurt me pretty much in the process, and yeah, there's still a picture of her at a place where i see everyday. But whatever la.
Then there's this girl that came into my life. She appeared to be nice, to be a nice friend. Well, i wouldnt say that i like her/love her, but i just wanna be closer than what we are at the moment. Although i have this feeling that eventually things wouldn't work out fine. It was a strange feeling yeah. Like we probably are just going to talk for a while, then slowly, Things are going to Fall Apart. ( yeah, so very Chinua Achebe =.= ). Well, things Did fall apart for a little while, then things came back as normal, then it fell apart again, then it came back =.=. that pretty much contributed to the fact that i'm having such stupid mood swings. Today i chatted with her, it started alright, and i was pretty happy and so and so. Then came a certain line in the chat that made me swing 180'. To totally emo. Then after a while, I fell alright again, then WTF. Another line. And i gave up. I sort of 'eeh eeh aah aah' throughout the rest of the convo.
Why? Yeah i do like her, but it's not the bf/gf kind of love thingy, but more of a 'hey i find u pretty interesting' kind. But this 'relationship' we are having is dissapointing me day by day. why? no idea.
Other reasons which contributed my current status,
1. Some PISSING OFF during evening. Certain people will know why. And THAT, was IRRITATING. if ever i find out how to Lock a post, i WILL SPAM A HECK LOT ON THAT TOPIC and let people who i AGREE to read them ny.
2. The SMOKE due to the buring of josssticks my grandma is using to help my mum pray for her birthday ( according to chinese calendar ). The smoke just creeps up my nose and gimme a double dose of FLU. flu 1. sick. flu 2, sinus prob. I used like what, 5 tissues a minute? until my nose went red and i decided, SCREW IT.
3. Some reminder of some awfully painful past events. =.=
4. Missing someone really important in my life.
5. Tired-ness
6. Physics and Mr.Lim
7. Facing a certain shitty Math teacher tomorrow.
8. Every other reason in the world =.=
The only funny thing today
( from seng yik's blog )
it goes like,
Why does abdullah only functions properly at night?
Coz he's PM not AM.
haha.
WHATEVER LAH! i'm PISSSED, TOTALLY MESSY and tired.
ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzz.......
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