Work

I started work 4 days ago, and did some actual work starting yesterday. Had my first interview ever too.

Looking back, i realise how much i've grown this past year. Not in terms of height of course. :p

Certain people in my life, which i've once considered best friends, they seem to me like they're kids. Choice of words, they way they carry themselves, etc. I guess going overseas did change me a lil afterall. Comparing friends from uni and other friends, it's only when i realise exactly what had changed.

At work, i realise how some of my old friends 'act busy'. I guess it does make you feel awesome and important when you're busy handling something. I admit, i was victim to this thought back then. Now, everyone's actually busy, but they try not to look so, so that people around them dont feel 'pressured'? i guess. I was lying my head on the table while thinking how to write a certain program, then a colleague came over and told me "hey why are you so stressed? you need some help?" wow. i wasnt even trying to look busy. and i wasnt stressed of course. since then, i sat up straight all the way.

but i'm really quite proud to say that i do know people who havent been abroad, and yet they are very matured. heck, some of them are 1 year younger, but they act like adults. It's just rather sad looking at people who are 21, and still act like a kid.

meh. i miss days when i fight with people over nonsense. it's just gone. long gone.

Birthday

This is how my birthday went.

12.00am -2.30 gastric attack while playing HoN

2.30-3.45am went out for a walk + food with jonathan + rob

11.30am wokeup. just sat in front of my comp.

12.07pm fiona wished me happy birthday

12.30pm tried to study, played o2mania instead

1pm-6pm reedited my fb profile, so that my bday shows. replying people's bday wishes. feeling empty, and rather pointless.

5,30pm dinner as usual

7.30pm-11.59 studied in the library for a while, saw something on facebook that just threw me off. was pissed for about an hour. came back, some HoN, bed

yay

How much i love you

Linky

thats a video of a girl breaking up with a guy, and then getting back together again.

which made me wonder. Is relationships really based around love? How much you love the other person? Or is it how much effort you're willing to put in to make the love work?

I lost myself last night.

It looks like i'm gonna have yet another lonely birthday.