Depressing

Few days ago, a certain primary schoolmate added me on facebook. And yes, it is damn weird becoz i actually cant recognise her.
I only remembered her due to her unique surname, which i only know one person with taht surname in my entire life.
Yes people, i actually dont recognise her.
U didn read wrong. I dont recognise her =.=
Wut the hell. She look totally different. Used to be an ugly girl sitting at the corner, talking to herself, and now, when i saw her fb pics, she's like a model. Damn hot. Damn pretty.

But.

It's damn fake. In my opinion.
Yes, most girls mature into young women in this stage, and they do look different. But i'm serious. This friend of mine is BEYONG RECOGNITION. And, it's all because of makeup, hair rebonding, and this and that. what the hell..
she's undoubtly pretty, but in a very ugly way. do u know i really dont like people who wear thick makeup HMM. and she changed her name, into a certain english name.
Mr Lim ( physics lecturer ) : How you make something high standard?
Class : Give it a name. And a definition.
She changed her name, into a classy high standard name, and redifined herself using makeup. Plus, she went to studios and took lots of photos ( i think so ) which made her look like a model.
It's just like fake boobs, where it's always different from natural ones, or maybe fake butts for eddie since u r a butt person huh xD ( i dont know why i added in this line, but whatever =.= )
Do you think she's pretty?
Debatable.

Joke of the day =.=

Janice just cut her hair, from the long hair she used to have, until very very short
Edward : Oi, what happened to your head?
Janice : WHAT? It's still intact.

HMmm. this is how 2 crazy people converse =)

by the way, this marks my 99th post =)

Hmmm

Here I sit and here i wonder,
whats wrong with myself?
Emotions are hardly controlled by the heart anymore, but instead, the brain controls my emotions. I shocked myself but APPEARING offline that once when you onlined. what the heck? I really dont dare to face you sometimes, because i'm unsure of my own feelings, whether it's true. Being bloody busy had washed off all my bloody feelings for anything, and now, when it turned to emptiness, i blocked myself of any emotions. I just DONT feel anything. I dont get angry, i dont get dissapointed, i'm just.. an empty shell. Even now as i write this, it's no longer the 'emo' thingy. Lily said 'i missed the old emo you'. But i just cant feel anything. Last time i wanted a relationship because i wanted to FEEL. Now, i cant feel anything. WHY?

This is not me, and i hope u know it. Hey there, yes you, i cant talk to you anymore cause i have nothing to say. because i cant feel.. thats why i keep asking you to talk to me instead of me talking. and everytime u answer, 'har.. i dunno what to say one wor' it pains me to hear it because that just means, the convo is just going to end. I know this is NOT a one way street, but still, can you take up the talking role while i search for myself? I dont want to resort to others just yet, coz if i do, it'll be very bad for you. You know it.

Yesterday i went to aunts house. Bored out of my brains. After two weeks of 'cousins around my age' constantly around me, i was suddenly surrounded by kids no more than 10 years old. Pfft. let me giv you one situation.

The boys annoy the girls, the girls got irritated and start hitting the boys back, boys let them hit, then the boys started laughing like mad, then the girls laughed too coz cant tahan the stupid look the boys had, this one girl got mad at herself coz she herself laughed, went out of the house, came back with her toy bow hung on her, her toy sword and knife in both her hands, and said ' DONT FORCE ME TO USE MY ULTIMATE ON U I TELL U' 你就是要逼我用絕招是不是?'
WHAT THE HECK!

I might have to turn to religion for the time being to save myself from this craziness.

Hectic Life

Ever since my exams ended, life's been very very hectic
A string of non stop commands from mum, requests from cousins, gaming calls from another cousin, bringing cousins here and there, resting, blargh. I dont even have time to go visit other people to take angpau. heck. i dont even have time to visit NEIGHBOURS to take angpau. =.=
yesterday wan the eighth day, hokkien pray sky day. Mum ask my cousins help prepare, sure la cousinss dunno how to do right. Everything also 'go ask he hui he know'. wa diao.
pffft. cousins wake up d. gtg